This should be good.

It’s been more years than I can remember and I’m ready to be back. Do you want to hear the truth? Know the fantasies, fears and delusions of my mind? Miss my stories of self-grandeur?

I’m back in a place of transition;

This time, there’s more mourning, but also plenty of celebration: in November, I’ll receive the first of two knee surgeries, kicking off a project of healing, surgery and rehab for two and a half years.

All I want to do is dance, sing, write, and fuck in this body that will soon be transformed into something newly abled. So in these next few months, I’ll sing and write and dance and fuck, play volleyball in the park and go hiking around the lake, camp on beaches and smoke joints on cliffs, aim for the Juan de Fuca and kickstart alternative sources of revenue for my business.

I’m better with my finances, have and keep a budget, have a partner to love on, a blooming, young man to raise, a family that delights and loves me, a remarkable job, plenty of growth opportunities.

I can tell you about my dreams, the vision I’ve arrived at with a lot of clarity, and all plans and actions I’m taking to get there.

This should be good.

Did you miss me?

feralfux:
“Stop buying toys and gear from Am@z0n. Support LITERALLY ANYONE ELSE instead.This is a repost from my old blog–with updates! Here is a massive list of recommendations of shops across the board. I put an emphasis on queer- or...

feralfux:

Stop buying toys and gear from Am@z0n. Support LITERALLY ANYONE ELSE instead.

This is a repost from my old blog–with updates! Here is a massive list of recommendations of shops across the board. I put an emphasis on queer- or women-owned/focused shops but not all have been vetted or verified. Starred (***) shops are ones I have personally shopped at or my friends recommend. I focused on quality materials and reasonable (but not always cheap) pricing.

You have no excuse to be buying sex toys off of Am@z0n when all of these shops exist. Most Etsy shops offer free shipping on purchases over $35!

GENERAL

Shops that sell a variety of toys, tools, and gear

STANDARD TOYS

Shops that sell realistic or standard-shaped toys

FANTASY TOYS

Shops that sell fantasy-themed or non-standard toys. Alternatives to B@d Dr@g0n.

LEATHER

Shops that specialize in leather tools and gear

NON-LEATHER

Shops that specialize in leather alternative gear and tools–vegan friendly!

LINGERIE

Shops that sell lingerie and other undergarments

Reblogging because I love some Good capitalism.

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“ Chiune Sugihara. This man saved 6000 Jews. He was a Japanese diplomat in...

apismel1fera:

grrlpup:

antifainternational:

mousezilla:

rhube:

fahrlight:

westsemiteblues:

returnofthejudai:

robowolves:

bemusedlybespectacled:

gdfalksen:

Chiune Sugihara. This man saved 6000 Jews. He was a Japanese diplomat in Lithuania. When the Nazis began rounding up Jews, Sugihara risked his life to start issuing unlawful travel visas to Jews. He hand-wrote them 18 hrs a day. The day his consulate closed and he had to evacuate, witnesses claim he was STILL writing visas and throwing from the train as he pulled away. He saved 6000 lives. The world didn’t know what he’d done until Israel honored him in 1985, the year before he died.

Why can’t we have a movie about him?

He was often called “Sempo”, an alternative reading of the characters of his first name, as that was easier for Westerners to pronounce.

His wife, Yukiko, was also a part of this; she is often credited with suggesting the plan. The Sugihara family was held in a Soviet POW camp for 18 months until the end of the war; within a year of returning home, Sugihara was asked to resign - officially due to downsizing, but most likely because the government disagreed with his actions.

He didn’t simply grant visas - he granted visas against direct orders, after attempting three times to receive permission from the Japanese Foreign Ministry and being turned down each time. He did not “misread” orders; he was in direct violation of them, with the encouragement and support of his wife.

He was honoured as Righteous Among the Nations in 1985, a year before he died in Kamakura; he and his descendants have also been granted permanent Israeli citizenship. He was also posthumously awarded the Life Saving Cross of Lithuania (1993); Commander’s Cross Order of Merit of the Republic of Poland (1996); and the Commander’s Cross with Star of the Order of Polonia Restituta (2007). Though not canonized, some Eastern Orthodox Christians recognize him as a saint.

Sugihara was born in Gifu on the first day of 1900, January 1. He achieved top marks in his schooling; his father wanted him to become a physician, but Sugihara wished to pursue learning English. He deliberately failed the exam by writing only his name and then entered Waseda, where he majored in English. He joined the Foreign Ministry after graduation and worked in the Manchurian Foreign Office in Harbin (where he learned Russian and German; he also converted to the Eastern Orthodox Church during this time). He resigned his post in protest over how the Japanese government treated the local Chinese citizens. He eventually married Yukiko Kikuchi, who would suggest and encourage his acts in Lithuania; they had four sons together. Chiune Sugihara passed away July 31, 1986, at the age of 86. Until her own passing in 2008, Yukiko continued as an ambassador of his legacy.

It is estimated that the Sugiharas saved between 6,000-10,000 Lithuanian and Polish Jewish people.

It’s a tragedy that the Sugiharas aren’t household names. They are among the greatest heroes of WWII. Is it because they were from an Axis Power? Is it because they aren’t European? I don’t know. But I’ve decided to always reblog them when they come across my dash. If I had the money, I would finance a movie about them.

He told an interviewer:

You want to know about my motivation, don’t you? Well. It is the kind of sentiments anyone would have when he actually sees refugees face to face, begging with tears in their eyes. He just cannot help but sympathize with them. Among the refugees were the elderly and women. They were so desperate that they went so far as to kiss my shoes, Yes, I actually witnessed such scenes with my own eyes. Also, I felt at that time, that the Japanese government did not have any uniform opinion in Tokyo. Some Japanese military leaders were just scared because of the pressure from the Nazis; while other officials in the Home Ministry were simply ambivalent.

People in Tokyo were not united. I felt it silly to deal with them. So, I made up my mind not to wait for their reply. I knew that somebody would surely complain about me in the future. But, I myself thought this would be the right thing to do. There is nothing wrong in saving many people’s lives….The spirit of humanity, philanthropy…neighborly friendship…with this spirit, I ventured to do what I did, confronting this most difficult situation—and because of this reason, I went ahead with redoubled courage.

He died in nearly complete obscurity in Japan. His neighbors were shocked when people from all over, including Israeli diplomatic personnel, showed up at quiet little Mr. Sugihara’s funeral.

I will forever reblog this, I wish more people would know about them!

I liked this before when it had way less information. Thank you, history-sharers.

Tucked away in a corner in L.A.’s Little Tokyo is a life-sized statue of Chiune, seated on a bench and smiling gently as he holds out a visa. 

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The stone next to him bears a quote from the Talmud; “He who saves one life, saves the entire world.”  

I had no idea it existed until a few weeks ago, but it’s since become one of my favorite pieces of public art. 

Chiune Sugihara.  Original antifa.

always reblog Chiune Sugihara. I have his picture over my desk at work to remind me what’s important.

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What I come to Tumblr for: stories of people being thoughtful about their presence on this earth.

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Anonymous asked: Are you going to sf pride this year?

I really wish I was; I need to be responsible, pay off debt and save money though. Some of my favourite people live in San Francisco and to be with them again, to celebrate queerness, to dance in the sunshine, to be surrounded by so many beautiful queers in Dolores… Ahhhh… Let me live vicariously through you!

Anonymous asked: you are beautiful thank you for existing!

Haha. I didn’t have a choice in my birth, but I continue to fight to live. :) so that means more than you might think. Thank you.

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boi-hood asked: I wish I could shave my head like yooouuuu. How did it feel was it as freeing as I imagine it to be?

Yes! Absolutely! So incredibly so. I found myself loving it so much more than I thought I would, slowly finding that I began to hold my bald head higher and higher. :) I hope you find the freedom to to do what feels good to you without fear. :)

Anonymous asked: Does it sometimes cross your mind that “April 29th is coming”?

Haha. How do you know this? Yes, yes. I tried to ignore it. I often feel numb as I approach it, else I be overwhelmed by how time has passed and I still have put off too much.

Getting more comfortable, grounded, back in my skin lately.

Getting more comfortable, grounded, back in my skin lately.